I’ve been going through a transitional period over the past few months. A state that lies just out of the comfort zone, change is a daunting process for most of us. Like most people, I find it really hard to let go of the things I’m most comfortable with. Again, i’m not talking about letting go of a romantic relationship, (come on guys – stay on your toes!), but something much more scary. I’m referring to letting go of everything you thought you were and accepting that you just aren’t that person anymore.
Relating to my previous post, our own company is the one we should be most comfortable with, we should know ourselves better than we know anyone else! So when you do go through a transitional period, it can be like you no longer recognise yourself and you need to formulate your beliefs all over again. I know this sounds deep as sh*t and yeah, you might need a refill to power through the rest of this post. Although I have sprinkled my description of this, in typical Leela Jasmine fashion, with a bit of drama – I do think it’s probably quite relatable to most in their 20’s.
I remember always getting so frustrated when people would tell me that I would think differently, change my mind or worse; realise I was wrong, when I got older. But this is one of those posts where I hold my hands up, raise that white flag! They were right; my opinions, beliefs and my outlook have completely changed in my 20’s. And whilst i’m sure none of us would be surprised by a slight change of outlook over an entire decade, for me it’s been quite a dramatic change, over just a short period of time.
When you go through this period of change, you can find yourself growing further and further away from some of the people in your life. Having been described as loyal beyond reason (and just emotional AF), this is the hardest part for me! The amount of guilt I can feel for just finding myself no longer fitting into some of the spaces and relationships I used to, is significant. But, ironically, I’ve found that whilst I drift away from some of those close to me, I grow closer and more connected to some of those I thought I would move away from.
It’s a scary but exciting journey. Sometimes I struggle to come to terms with my opinions where they have just changed completely from what i’ve always thought I’ve known. But, other times, I completely shock myself with how I handle situations 100% differently (& 100% better) than the old me would have.
Although accepting that you no longer have anything in common with some of those in your life is hard, denying your beliefs just to fit in is far worse. Who you are will be the only constant in your life , so own it!
The old Leela always regarded the phrase ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ as a total bitch slap in the face, but now for the first time, the phrase is true to me. I’m moving on – and that’s okay.
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